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The Strength To Move On

It's holidays now, but it's working days for me. The difference is that we will never get our pay. ^^ The good thing is we gain experience from it. Done a lot of reading about automotive modification these days. Gonna prepare myself for this upcoming challenge. If we won, we will make UTHM proud. If we lose, they might as well try again next year. But still, i must keep telling myself that i will not give up now. I'd told myself in the beginning that i will stay and i will give myself for this upcoming event. Wish me luck.

Last night, something happened. I'm not sure if it was the effect from the sunburn which i got during that day or something else but i remembered i was tired and exhausted. I slept early. That particular night, i kept hearing sound. Sound which made me woke up in the middle of the night. It happened a few times. I had nightmare too. Nightmare which i can't even remember. I heard footsteps and sound of scratches. Sound of people messing up stuffs. Is it in my head or is it something else. Well, there's no one to answer this. Paranormal or myself? Gonna stick on the bright side. ^^

Last week, i bring an end to a war. Thinking of myself back. My temper. Something that i should control for a better future. Even though things and problems are not going smooth enough. And friends around us are crossing the limit and messing with your nerves. I might as well move on with my life. More or less, its something natural since i know what's the truth in my sight. I just need something that's honest and sincere. Not gonna make myself live in a world full of hypocrites. Faking and running in every single situation would just make things worse. Being proud for something that u are not just make yourself look pathetic. Giving up myself now and move on. There are other people out there that's more important for me to care of. My family. I miss them.

May God shower us with His blessings and may He send His Holy Spirits to guide over us in our life. Amen.

[Thanks Nat for the prayer ^^]

-Peace Out-

A New Chapter Of My Life

A new chapter of my life.

Though few months back,
I was reminded by someone,
But now its over,
When that person chose to let go.

Letting go everything we built,
Cause when i found the part of my life,
Where i truly needed someone,
Then people start to unrecognized you,
As what you really am.

I guess,
Not much people can understand this,
Cause when they say they do,
They are actually not.

They are all memories.

The feelings are like,
Something wrong when i tried,
Just to fill the hole inside my heart,
Its something really wrong when i tried,
Just to be someone that i want to be.

This is not for anyone to decide,
Cause i decide my own life,
What i want to be,
And guess what?

I'm not confuses as u are,
Right or wrong,
Human is just a single entity,
Emotions and feelings are too complicated to be understood.

I've tried my best,
To do well in everything,
But not everything goes smoothly,
As how i want them to be.

But for me,
I won't give up now,
For those things that i want to achieve,
Even if it's like crying for the moon,
I won't give up,
I won't stop being who i am,
Cause this is me.

And now,
The hole is being filled,
I will be the best that i can be,
And i hope,
Everything will goes right,
Cause i really love,
You. ^^

-Peace Out-

A Whole New Day Routine

Its been like 2 weeks here. My holidays are gone! Lol. Been working at automotive lab these days. 3 days in exact actually. First day was like shit. It happened cause we are still trying to get ourselves into the environment. Mei Mei called this as discrimination. Second day, we planned not to go because the first day was like shit. But received called by the president early in the morning asked us to go in the afternoon. So we went there in the afternoon. Second day was not as shitty as the first day but its still like shit. Those staffs were pissed cause we were not there to help out in the morning. Third day which is today. Second day lesson told us not to miss the morning attendance or else the staff will be treating us like shit. We went there early to show our damn face and they felt so damn happy already. They started to recognize us as part of the team, they talked to us, they asked help from us, and they don't treat us as shit as yesterday. And that makes me feel not so shitty anymore. And i hope tomorrow can be less shitty as possible. Hehehe.

Staying here with Mei Mei at his house. Sorry Pet Pet, i carried out ur bed. Sleeping inside ur living room! Lol. Lazy to climb on the bed actually. Yesterday, Parit Raja got this terrible lightning, there's there was one particular scary one. Strike the area here, it was so bright, the moment it disappear, its dark. I received called from Mei Mei. He was frightened to stay at home and he sound like he was crying. Aww. Pity him. Haha. He even called his gf and mom to complain about it. So now im here staying with him. Just to accompany him to fight with his imaginary ghost. Part time ghost buster. Anyway, gotta go.

-Peace Out-


Hypocrite

Sometimes i really hated myself,
Regretting myself on putting much trust,
Where people they like to promise us,
Their sweet words.

All and everything is a lie,
Accepting as in not accepting,
Trust as in not trust,
What the hell?

After all this i've done,
Drawing madness out of me,
Those hatred,
Its gone now.

Starting a new life,
After all these,
Realize or not,
I'm still me.

But now,
Its done,
I got my own now,
And i'm happy.

Hoping that all these hypocriter,
Would just disappear from my life,
Now and forever.

-Peace Out-

End Of 2nd Year 2nd Semester!

Hey! Its been a hard week guyz. Finished my final the other day, material selection and it was kinda disaster. Stayed up the whole night doing the memorizing but it end up not helping in anything. Daim. It was so hard that 2 hours paper we can finished them just in a few minutes. Sigh. The only paper that will destroy everything i tried so hard each semester to achieve.

After final we went to Big Cinema, Bp Mall to watch Iron Man. I was excited at first even though i was so tire. And guess wad! I fell asleep during the movie! Owh my gawd! I thought i was too tire that time for not sleeping for 48 hours but no. It was so daim boring which the last part when they start to fight then i woke up. Waste my movie ticket! Lol.

Anyway, today will be my last day staying at Perwira. Like most of my friend will say! We are free from the Mak Guard and Pak Guard Perwira. Lol. Now i feel like this 2 years just passed by in a blink of eyes. 2 more years to go. The war is getting harder each semester. After this we gonna move to our rent house. Bought a new table and chair that cost me the last few money in my pocket.

Anyway, will take some photos of my rent house! Take care guyz and one more thing! I guess i found one of my missing puzzle in my life. Lol.

-Peace Out-
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